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@ 9:40 PM
My life sucks.School people says i've changed. So i changed for them.Now my church friends said i've changed.What do you want from me?Why can't people just ACCEPT the way people change?I accepted EVERY SINGLE one of you guys when you changed.Its sucks. I wish there would be just ONE person who would just ACCEPT the way i am. Fine i'm bitchy, up to you. Its mentally very very tiring for me if you didn't know. I thought you guys were my friends. I can't stay innocent and sweet and "the old gracia" for the rest of my life. FYI, it doesnt work that way. My life sucks even more. I'm constantly used as a subsitute. Whenever one friend has another friend, they forget me. When the friend doesnt have the other, then they come to me. It happens everytime, everywhere. What's wrong with people nowadays? Everyone seems to be turning on me. It always seems like i'm the only one suffering. Its very very very tiring. I just wish that i could just fall asleep and never ever wake up again. I just wish that all my problems and burdens would just roll away. It isn't easy being "the happy one" all the time. I always wonder if my friends ever think of what is actually behind the smile i always put on. Do they even think about the problems i'm facing? Do they? Its just so tiring to live in my world. I used to love going to church whenever i faced school friendship problems because my friends in church were really much much nicer. They used to not care about what kind of person that i've become. Now its different. I have no one to turn to. Except GOD. I just dont trust anyone enough now. Maybe i do, those loyal besties that i have failed to notice them whenever i dont have troubles. Like Isabel and Debbi. They are always there for me, even if i change, even if i become bitchy or whatever crap. Life just sucks. All the good times always seems to pass by so fast and all the horrible, heart breaking times seem to drag forever. I dont know why i'm crying right now. I just wonder what happened to the strong gracia that never cared what other people though of her? Maybe its because now everyone is against her. She has no one to turn to except GOD of course. Its just really hard. I have enough things to worry about. But bad things just keep adding on. Why must this happen to me? Of all people, me? Not going to go on anymore. I just feel like screaming my lungs out. But i cant. I have to bottle it all up. I'm gonna explode someday if this goes on. Maybe it'll be better if i exploded. Then i wont have to feel all that pain anymore. Its HARD. Really.Tag Repliesminwei: OKAY! XDKELVINA: Haha, stop spamming lah. ;DCARINA: YEAH YEAH YEAH. ;DDDDminwei: OKIIE! ;Dyingci: HELLO CHEWING GUMM!!Gina: Okiie thanks Gina!Danyel: Thanks babe!natalie: HAHA. stop braging lah. my geog sucks loh! C5. BLAH man!
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